for the nice words regarding my loss.

It is a difficult time now for me, the last weeks have been terrible, despite of all the stress I'm facing now, a lot of memories are coming to my mind, a lot of questions you ask yourself, also a lot of things to regret.

I'm back here in Stuttgart, working 13 hours a day, although I know I should better do this for "my own" company now, its not always easy to stay concentrated and I miss Aninha.
Thought the work would distract, but cannot avoid the pictures coming to my mind, woke up at 04:00h this night and could not stop thinking.

From one moment to the other almost everything has changed in my live, things which seemed to be important are insignificant now, things for them you never wasted a thought are existential now. At the one hand there is swoon and mourning, there is the sorrow for my mother, at the other hand there is the pressure to do the right things now, to take the right decisions, to manage all the things, not to forget something important.
Its not always easy to push emotions aside, to control your thoughts, to face the reality, sometimes its like a nightmare, but any kind of weakness is not allowed in this game.

Yesterday, I had to think of "loneheartedmystic", I was really touched by the destiny of his girlfriend Ana, who died in the Bali bombing, his postings on the BTF have been really heartbreaking in the aftermath, hope and wish he will get over this tragedy.

A big hug to all
Thorsten